to huijia :
anyways, i don't post my attitude on my blog. after all its mine, why do you care.
word is, i owe LEO. not you. and i'm not interested to talk to you or find no need at all to talk to you since i'm not in the band anymore. i don't need to talk to you face to face about the band because i didn't treat you as one of the members anyway. i don't need advice or instructions from someone i don't think has the appropriate maturity level to even advise me on anything i do.
i know you like leo so you're doing everything for her. and i find it disgusting. i've been wanting to say this for a very long time but i guess i was just being nice.
i know you're very free, cause basically you don't bother about anything, but i do. and for your information if you didn't know, i have lessons.


i intended on posting that, but i realized i have better things to do.

to leo :
i really dont mind if you disown me as bro or whatever. if i'm not up to your expectations or whatever just whatever luh. i will return you the money once i find some person who has a working atm. i'm not avoiding YOU. i have lessons and i just had CCA today.
the post was just to tell you, other people with bands who are not working out still enjoy when they jam together. we DID just start, and we WERE really good considering that we just started out. but i guess saying all these don't matter anymore so i'll just stop.
what good does it do me for dissing a band i was in.

and i'm really super tired out that i have to tackle the constant same issue. if you would, just please stop reading my blog cause its what i think, and you're just taking offence in the maximum amount of trivial things that i write.

i've found a band that was way worse than overdose.



plain crap.

tired.

Sister just left for Malaysia. She's gonna live in a forest man. Coolio.

I realised i like roaming around even more man.
From some habit starting in primary school, exploring the drains and canals in school uniform.
I went to settle the class tee stuff on saturday, and went roaming around with Rachel.
She's my roaming buddy now ^^
we went to Peninsula Shopping Centre, and to the Substation, Then to the Armenian Church of Gregory, where we found the grave of Agnes Joaqium, the woman of which our national flower was named after. Her whole family and the Sarkies family was buried there.
Then we went to esplanade, and the back of Timbre. Walked around and talked, lied on the grass, stared at the sky, learnt about Falun-gong from a woman under a bridge.

Then off to meet my sister and her bf for a movie.
We watched the Kite Runner, it was really meaningful and some tearful moments here and there. Deep thought through the whole day, it was cool.


Anyone up for roaming around with me?
There's still Haji Lane, Little India, ChinaTown, Fort Canning, Old Changi Hospital and Red House. Spooky places in the day though, bad encounters. Haha.

uncivilized gangster. you call me an uncivilized gangster. in what way?
you want to talk face to face? i can't be sickening giving a shit.
i know you don't give a shit about your studies, i know you can afford to have 25 points for you O's, but I CAN'T.

if you think i'm not mature, go ahead.
i feel no need in continuing this moronic argument and its a total waste of my time and energy.

i'm not being arrogant that i have a good voice, when have i ever said that?

you can go ahead and push your band, after all, its YOURS isn't it.
since all you care about is gore, you've found another vocalist to gore, haven't you.
then go ahead with her! why the need for me. after all, i'm just a lousy guitarist that can't even palm mute or gore with the attitude problem while screwing up and feeling sorry for myself after that?


well you have fun won't you.

i dont want to be too dependent. can't you see i avoid going out with you all now?
cause i'm sick of it, i just want to fucking stop get it?

when i had my ang pao money, its mine, i like to spend it, and then?

and i have studies, i know you've graduated and all. but i now still need to study. huijia can go out often with you all and stuff but i can't, okay?

i'm sick of it, i respect you as a band leader, but this role of you being the leader of it all brings forward to reality. even as we go out normally i'm sick of this 'being led by the nose' feeling.

i enjoyed, i had fun, i screwed up, and i'm sick of it.

fuck the passion, screw the determination.






all i care now is my studies, my school, and my silly reuby.

sick!

i think i'm useless. AS USUAL.

yucks i feel like shit.